Today a strange thing happened. I was doing my normal afternoon walk in the outskirts of the city when I decided to pop in a restaurant to have a pint. I had walked past it multiple times but never went in. Now I opened the door and noticed that it’s a kind of food place, full of people having dinner. I sat at the bar wearing my Barbour jacket and red Cousteau-style hat. As soon as I sat down, the bartender winked at me and gave a beer for free. He pointed me to the other bartender who also winked. Maybe they mixed me with someone else. No one here should know about my intentions. Anyhow I was getting nervous about the situation so I quickly emptied my glass and left the place.

I spent most of the day relaxing at home. When dusk arrived I was feeling restless and I decided to go for a little walk. I was wandering along the empty city streets and took some photographs about the fascinating play between lights and shadows. Finally I ended up in a pub. Almost the only place alive this evening. So here I am writing and thinking. Not at once has the idea of cancelling popped in my mind. Anyhow I’m quite nervous since it will not be easy thing to pull off. Most of the preparations are now done, but there are still lots of things that could go wrong. Mostly I’m worried about things that are out of my power, but now I’m also quite concerned on how I can do my own part when things are getting tough.

I will start an experiment soon. In fact a serie of them. I will be the test guinea pig.

People are designed to experience the world in stereo. We see, hear and smell in stereo. I will train myself to be more sensitive. I will block my ear nostril and eye first from the left side and then freom the right side. I will learn to combine my senses to survive. That will make me strong. No one kan beat a man who senses the world like I do. That will make me ready. I will go away but then I will return. I will fullfill the prophecy.

How can the stupid science guys be so selfish. Clearly they are just thinking about Nobel-prize and are sincerely not interested in the common good.

It’s trendy now but it’s not a new idea to harness big crowds to help in science. Seti@home gives everyone a possibility to help in finding extraterristrial life. Similar idea would also work in traditional sciences. There is still lots of open questions about the structure of our universe. One of the biggest mysteries is the gravity.

People are not stupid. There might be a truck driver in India who happens to think about this and can form the answer in his mind but no one would listen. Einstein was just a patent office guy. He was not a scientist but everyone now thinks he was. He got famous. The science superstars today are just bunch of selfish assholes who do not like the idea that a common guy would solve a mystery that they couldn’t even when they have used dozens of years and millions of tax payer’s dollars to do this.

I have been working on a theory. I was thinking to be nice and to send it to Stephen Hawking. This crippled dick is saying in his homepage that he is not interested in people’s theories even if they are right. What the fuck! So this guy is saying that unless you are part of the academic community you are not allowed to solve the mysteries of the universe. What a load of shit!

Who needs these stupid professors. they are like priests. They do not know anything more about normal guy but they have elevated themselves to a position that no mortal can reach. They have the connection to the gods of science and they are friends with the editors of science publications so only they are allowed to publish theories about things that no one can know for sure.

Instead of supporting this elite of jerks why would we not start a organization that would be going through the ideas from normal men and women around the world. Even if everyone randomly makes a theory the volume is so large that it’s likely that some of these predictions would hit the spot. I say that we should not give a dime to the sicence idiots and instead we hire people to full-time go through the ideas from people around the world. We could call this team “the Mathbusters”

What will my destiny be? I saw a glimpse of something great. Flying in the sky above everyone. I saw people looking up at me. I saved this world and moved on to save the next.

I know I’m destinied for something great. I will answer the questions that people could ask but did not dare to look for the answer.

I will be the way to the life without boundaries.

My great theories will solve everything. I will fix the flaw in Einstein’s theory of relativity.

I will add it in front of mirror. I will tell you that there literaly is two sides in everything. The stupid scientists thought they are smart but they knew nothing.

Reality is a reflection in the water. Ying and Yang. + and -. There is a force between these two sides keeping them apart. In speed of light these long separated twins will meet and everything collapses. All than is left is the energy. Soul. The fifth dimension.

If you find a stick long enough you can make a ripple in the reflection and change the world.

Oh shit this is a cool song. Like a Dutch version of Jefferson Airplane. Postcards and airplanes made me thinking.. what if you are flying your your TBF Avenger at the Caribbean and all of a sudden you are unlucky to line up with the celestial bodies in a manner that creates a small singularity in your location and throws you 1000 years back in time. How would you send a message to your own time?

I believe that there is extraterristrial life out there. Anyhow the distances and timeframes are so huge that it’s not very likely possible to meet anyone. I donät believe in the “ancient aliens theory” but I think it is possible that people intentionally or unintentionally have ended up in past time and they have instructed the people (who are mistaken to think they are gods) to buid massive monuments that will survive the time and tell to their relatives what happened to them.

Or maybe the ancient people made them to attract future time travellers. As a kind of huge billboards saying “We are here. Please come to visit us”.

I have been planning to send messages to future. How can I make sure they will survive the time. It should be something really colossal. Think about all the ancient cities etc. They were huge but nothing is left today. I might need to write my ideas to stone rather than Internet to be sure that future generations will be able to read them.

Did I say yesterday that I would steal a spacecraft? I didn’t mean it. Might be that I will borrow one, but if they come to get it, they will definitely get it back. I’m not a thief. I’d rather call myself explorer.

Did you know that NASA was seriously planning a fly-by operation to Venus in the past? They were supposed to use a wet-workshop –concept. That means that in space they would convert a used rocket-phase into the living quarters for the trip. That’s quite good idea, since the fuel tanks inside a rocket are well insulated and made of very durable titanium. It’s also cost-efficient since else way the rocket parts would just fall back to earth and burn in the atmosphere. Every now and then they don’t burn completely and some lucky or very unfortunate farmer will find strange titanium spheres in his field.

Last night the sky was offering spectacular sight. I was standing in the chilling autumn night watching how the meteor shower made sky to sparkle. It was amazing, but I’m hoping to see something even more special when I’m on my way.

I’m so agitated but music can relax me. Just thinking about it makes me smile and cry for joy. Sitting alone in my leather couch wearing a tux and having a glass of excellent Italian wine. Inside laughing. People think I’m mad. They do not understand. They will lose.

You can not win a man who knows that everyone is making their own thruth – own reality.

You might struggle in  your life. I watch you fall. I watch you cry. You just see failure around you. I don’t care. I take more wine and smile. In my world I’m the god. No one can be certain so in the end everyne was right. I drink my wine and laugh. What can be better background music to that. Even when I fall I enjoy it. I can not be beaten.

Again I’m repeating myself. I will be something! Most of people just don’t dare. Who dares wins! I will win! I love to be right. You idiots! You will see that I was right! It happens all the time that there is an argument and afterwards no one remembers that they opposed me. I will win and I will humiliate anyone who was against me. I will leave proof of my ideas around the world so that future historiand will see that I knew it but no one believed.

This has been seen so many times in the history. “And yet it moves”. I’m writing this to paper and to the Internet so many times that no one can claim to have discovered that. It was me who found the missing piece to the puzzle with quantum mechanics and newtonian science. It was me who found cure to the ever groving obesity and it was me who composed the best song in the world.