It’s morning again. I would not like to wake up. Now I need to sleep without the medication and that makes all kind of thoughts swirling in my mind all night. I’m not that much worried about which things from my normal life I would miss. Actually I have that calm feeling that sitting alone somewhere speeding through the space will be my normal life. I never really fitted here with my temper and strange way of thinking the life and trying to understand it.

Sometimes I have been worried about how other people are thinking about me. In the end I still think that they would accept me if they understood the same as I did. Therefore the idea of hijacking NASA spacecraft and possibly ruining important experiment does not bother me. Anyhow instead they will get a human guinea pig that certainly will provide them more than just a stupid space probe.